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Happy New Year!

So goodbye to 2018, the year I grieved for my father in law and learnt to cope with loss of my best friends baby.

It was also the year I found out who I could trust and who to keep close. In bereavement you truly learn who are the friends that really care for you and will be there for you throughout any life event. No texts to say 'How are you?' no inviting you anywhere to come for a coffee or some time away from your own thoughts. No keeping you in the loop with what's going on in their lives, just not speaking for fear of upset. Well, if you are not in it for the long run, through thick and thin with me you are no longer with me.

Is it age that has made me brutal with friends or is it that I know enough pain to see when something is going to hurt me further?

So, goodbye to 2018, good bye to the friends that were not there for me, goodbye to crying everyday, goodbye to the unhealthy habits that I have been leaning on and goodbye to all the negativity that I seem to be surrounded with.

And hello to 2019!

A fresh start, a year where I can manifest exactly what I want in life, spend time with the people who genuinely care for me and my well being and flourish.

We may have rang in the new year sleeping and getting woken up by fireworks but if that does not scream look after yourself and you will be surprised by the good things coming to you what does?

L

x